And the results are in!

I finally got the results from my metabolism test today. Ready for it?
drumroll......I burn 2,027 calories just sitting on my butt all day. The guy doing the test guestimates that I probably burn anywhyere from 700-1000 more than that with exercise and other daily activities. That makes it like 3,000 calories a day! Considering I ingest usually less than 1,500 makes it so I'm losing about 2.5 pounds/week. Which is exactly the rate I've been losing at! Don't you love it when science agrees with what you already know?

Now, they also measure where your energy stores are coming from. Apparently I'm burning about 50/50 glucose & fat. I'm not burning muscle, however, and that was my primary purpose in getting the test.

Now for the bad news: I am burning at about 70% of what people my age, sex, and weight usually burn calories at. He said this is due to a number of factors, weight loss being one of them. I can live with that, ecspecially given I'm not burning up all my muscle with this weight loss. This is all I really wanted to learn from the test. Now I can relax and know that I don't need to up my caloric intake.

In other news my sister is leaving for her cruise in 2 days. I'm really super jealous but also looking forward to having the house TO MYSELF for over a week! Here's one of my favorite cruise pics, not because I look great but because of the precious look on Sara's face. Look closely...

Could she be any more of a horndog? My answer is maybe and that is precisely why I'm not going on this next cruise.

Although I'm a people person, I think I could really enjoy living by myself. Now I just need to decide if I'm willing to do that and in another state, no less! I just know that something's gotta change. I need to take action and I don't know what that action should be. I need to do a better job of finding these answers because praying just isn't cutting it right now. Maybe I should fast about it. Maybe I'm asking the wrong questions. Maybe I've just got that Seasonal Affective Disorder? Who the heck knows.

Revenge of the fat movie stars!

Has anyone else noticed that those actresses who were once the "butt" of Jay Leno and Conan O'Brien's jokes have decided to fight back? And who wouldn't? We all would love to get back at our personal nemesis, the relentless school bully. For Star Jones, Conan was her personal "El Guappo", and for Kirstie Alley, Jay Leno. Well they've both decided that they had enough. Well me too! I don't have a school bully, per se, but do men ever look at me? People assume I'm jolly because of my size. I can't participate in the same activities that all the other "kids" participate in. I think the bigger I got the more I became invisible. It's nature's cruel irony. Well I'm sick of being bullied. I'm 45 pounds closer to becoming free of my nemesis, but there's been some unexpected changes with my newfound freedom.

There's discomfort in becoming visible again. Who would have thought that I, of all people, would have a problem with attention. For so many years I've relied on my huge personality for people to see me. Now that they're seeing me in a different light I'm having to back off on my personality. This scares me beyond anything else. I'm having to re-learn how to talk to people. I wish there was a book for this kind of thing.