Why am I blogging?
Why am I blogging when I've got 4 weeks worth of website work to do and 2 days to do it in? What's more, it's not phasing me for some reason? Hence the total waste of time sitting here blogging about things that no one will read anyway. Aint delusions grand? What's funny is that the website will probably be better for it, because it'll be simple & straightforward!
I went in for another fill yesterday. Yeah, I'm addicted to those. It's a lot like prozac for fat people. My new restriction level is 2.5, and I don't think it made one lick of difference. Of course, my fills tend to kick in a bit later. Physically speaking, it's impossible for restriction to kick in later, but that's what happens, nonetheless. The last week or so I've only been getting in like 850-950 calories/day. It's kind of a struggle to fit more in. Heck, maybe I could start having chocolate again - that'll up my caloric intake! But really, I've developed this sort of phobia toward food now. Even if I KNOW I NEED more calories, that right-brained part of me thinks that eating more will just end up on my stomach. I know that if I don't up the calories, though, I'm going to end up burning muscle instead of fat and then it'll be even harder to lose weight. So I need to recommit myself to eating at least 1,200 calories/day. I don't NEED to be losing nearly 3 pounds a week. It's fun, yes, but it's not safe.
I'm below 250 now (245 to be exact), which makes my weight loss almost 60 pounds! The funny thing is that I don't feel like I look any different. I'm just a smaller version of the funny shape I was 60 pounds ago. Maybe I need to take another "after" picture to really appreciate it. Ok, that's what I'll do tonight and then post a pic update tomorrow!
I went in for another fill yesterday. Yeah, I'm addicted to those. It's a lot like prozac for fat people. My new restriction level is 2.5, and I don't think it made one lick of difference. Of course, my fills tend to kick in a bit later. Physically speaking, it's impossible for restriction to kick in later, but that's what happens, nonetheless. The last week or so I've only been getting in like 850-950 calories/day. It's kind of a struggle to fit more in. Heck, maybe I could start having chocolate again - that'll up my caloric intake! But really, I've developed this sort of phobia toward food now. Even if I KNOW I NEED more calories, that right-brained part of me thinks that eating more will just end up on my stomach. I know that if I don't up the calories, though, I'm going to end up burning muscle instead of fat and then it'll be even harder to lose weight. So I need to recommit myself to eating at least 1,200 calories/day. I don't NEED to be losing nearly 3 pounds a week. It's fun, yes, but it's not safe.
I'm below 250 now (245 to be exact), which makes my weight loss almost 60 pounds! The funny thing is that I don't feel like I look any different. I'm just a smaller version of the funny shape I was 60 pounds ago. Maybe I need to take another "after" picture to really appreciate it. Ok, that's what I'll do tonight and then post a pic update tomorrow!
posted by Georgie Porgie @ 11:46 AM
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